Even This Way
An open letter to my sibling lost to abortion
It’s me, your big sis. I look forward to the day we get to meet. Know that your absence is a loss to me, even though we may only be half-siblings. I have two sisters who are half-siblings also, but I love them so much. It’s amazing: sibling love. It’s my favorite kind of love in the world.
I hope to share it with you on a spiritual level. I know we never got to share sibling experiences: I never got to pick on you or make mud pies with you, but I would have. I haven’t heard you laugh or held you while you cried, but I would have.
I’m so sad for what could’ve been. I can’t help but wonder if maybe you would’ve been a lot like me. Would we have the same sense of humor or would you roll your eyes at me for my terrible French accent?
Maybe we would both be creatives. I would've loved to share the arts with you. But it's okay if you weren't into it. Maybe you would have to teach me about sports or gardening; I know nothing about those things. That would’ve been okay too, though, because I would’ve loved to learn about what you loved.
Our dad is so sorry for the abortion, by the way. He cried just when I said the word once. It doesn’t seem like he or your mom understood the situation in its entirety. I pray for both of them often, as I’m sure you do.
You would probably be 26 years old or so by now. I guess you wouldn't be a little kid like I picture you. Maybe we would enjoy wine tasting at a vineyard together. But maybe you would be more into beer or whiskey.
I hope it’s okay that I tell people about you when I have my presentations all over the world. I do what I do for you. I honor my mom for choosing life, and I hope to honor you because you were not so fortunate.
Please pray for me often. Thank you for showing me that you are at peace with the Lord. I am so happy that you get to spend eternity gazing upon the face of our Creator. Your peace helps give me peace.
It’s so easy for me to get caught up in the darkness of the issue, but you have shown me that you are in a better place, in the arms of Jesus.
You have given me purpose in my mission, and for that I am forever grateful. You will always be in my heart, and I will forever defend life for you. We each have very different parts to play, but we are definitely two pieces of the same puzzle, piecing together a more beautiful world. A culture of life, a civilization of love.
Your Big Sis